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Thing I learned from Rupauls Drag race of the day

I mentioned this to my therapist today because I really thought it was a subtle little GEM they threw in. So THANK YOU RU for this dash of wisdom. During the episode before last when SON!QUE got the chop she was feeling legitimately humbled and am sure humiliated and whilst PACKING HER SHIT just said quite honestly..."Well I guess theres more to life then being better then everyone."... OUCH...damn that was real?! I was like that needs to go on the refrigerator of this competitive cunts ass... Ugh If I dont cut the competitive shit Im gonna be singing that tune soon! and no im not CRAZY COMPETITIVE but it is a little part of my personality I developed as a baby gay as a form of defense but Ive out grown it..Thank you SON!QUE and RU?! You helped someone out and you didnt even know it!

Its nice to know that anti gay types really are just jilted cock suckers and closet homosexuals( I was the closet homosexual in this case?!)

Ok So I crashed and went to bed at 7:30 tonight after eating two stuffed cabbage, a cupcake bigger then my fist, a quart of strawberries and a peanut butter protein bar, so now im UP. I decided to look people up on facebook. FINALLY this old best friend I had is on there. THE ONE WHO REALLY WANTED TO SUCK MY DICK WHEN I WAS 13.
He has like this hyper hetero page with quotes like "save a tree and eat a beaver" and "I like all music except GAY ASS techno" AND the only group hes a member of is the SELMA HAYEK group, and I guess hes a cop....
Ok let me paint the picture. We were 12 or 13, its the weekend and were "lifting weights" at my house, we didnt know what the fuck we were doing, just doing arm curls ON THE COUCH while watching tv. Its a very Bel Ami / Terry Richardson (ick) / Saved by the Bell moment ( Saved by the Bell is also ick but not as ick as Terry Richardson, it chaps my ass thats hes a legit reference because hes such a gross person in my very limited experience with him but it was a fitting descriptive term so forgive me. Oh and I should clarify yes HE was gross but his assistants were really the grubs that pushed it over the edge, one looked like a PEDOPHILE CHILD STRANGLER and the other SAT IN CORNER AND ATE FOOD WITH HER HANDS, which you know is EXACTLY why they got the job!... SUCH a hobo party for the son of a rich guy, one of my BIGGEST PEEVES. Fake poor and fake talent when its really just your dad who had the talent and its fun for you to drag his name through the mud because youre an over privileged, under loved child of someone with actual talent and drive so they were SHITTY PARENTS. Sorry but almost EVERYBODYS DAD SUCKS, get over it, and stop making us deal with your rage and masking it as gritty and real and art, its just a bratty kid breaking a vase for attention..... WOW?! Guess I had some UNTAPPED RAGE myself, the victim being Mr. Richardson... glad I can blog it out...sorry you had to read that but Im not sorry I said it. It was honest and Im so over dealing with THAT PERSON. Remember I went to Cal Arts and spent four years with THAT PERSON.... It makes you hate art for real, but that hate for the bullshit makes you REALLY appreciate real talent and craft and so on so THANK YOU GOD FOR TERRY RICHARDSON so I can TRULY APPRECIATE REAL TALENT...See how I made those lemons into lemonade.. the therapy IS WORKING?!;) and you know what I must say Im also JEALOUS that he makes a ton of money making crap. Im jealous, So Im HALF jealous and half all the other stuff I said... I'll own my shit but it doesnt lessen the other stuff I said, Im just saying its not motivated out of PURE LOVE FOR THE ARTS, its also motivated out of jealousy.. I'll own up to it, its just hard to handle someone like that when you actually werent rich (though Im not saying I was under privileged by any means) and these rich brats ran around and claimed to be "real" and "artists" and NOT just the angry and spolied child of a rich person, all any of us wanted to do was strangle them. )
...Anyways ( sorry for the long winded art rant) we both get boners and decide to jerk off which is actually a NEW THING TO DO?! but he is like you sit in front of me and I will jerk you off ( and I wanna say suck you), and im like "Um.. I dont think so." fearing that it was just WAY TOO GAY so being the crazy semi-german emotionally detached self loathing closet homosexual polbot thing I was/ is ( getting over it) Im like "Lets jerk off at the same time but in SEPARATE ROOMS?!?!?" It made PERFECT SENSE to me as a retarded child and didnt seem THAT GAY, so we do it but I honestly got freaked out by JUST THAT and it ruined our friendship and we never really hung out after that. I handled that POORLY and regret it but I was SURE I was gonna get outed as the BIG FAG I knew I was, ugh.. I feel bad. Lesson learned. I guess because I was the REAL GAY and it freaked me out, too much, too soon, too "real". The real life role reversal is interesting, did I sour him on gayness and snub him to soon and turn him into a bitter heterosexual who now hates gays forever because he got LEFT AT THE GAY ALTER WITH HIS MOUTH OPEN?! A modern day Maleficent from Sleeping Beauty?! Oh you know he is just a GLORY HOLE FIEND nowadays...
Anyways, I find it funny that the dude is a JILTED COCK SUCKER yet has anti gay shit on his page and loves Selma Hayek who was my first "modeling" job ever and she posed on my lap with her tits in my face and I could have cared less. She was such a MEAN TWAT I would have rather done it with HER in SEPARATE ROOMS.

Fetish Kookery of the day: A-MAZE-ING

I love how hes giving us FULL TILT BOOGIE "topping from the bottom" realness and just deleted a living top all together, made a recording of EXACTLY what he would want the top to say, made a scarecrow and put dildo on it, and then obeys his cruel but completely self manufactured "master"... GENIUS, its very Norman Bates as fetish slave... We'll all be doing this in the future when computer technology has caught up enough and we can just build our sex partners.. I say give it 10 years for a reasonable facsimile....
II cant wait for it to get all "genius" on us and figure out stuff we like because of stuff that is "similar" and when it gets all verbal you can "train" it to say what you like exactly, like FAGGOT is HOT but im not into SISSY, and BOY is LAME but Pussy is GREAT!!!..

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Kano is fierce.

He had me with the title alone and his style is AWESOME, it doesnt get much more "real" and of course I LOVE his back up dancer- the mannequin operated by fishing line.
That moment between 2:02-2:18 is a PRECIOUS MOMENT. SO GOOD, you would NEVER see that today, its GENIUS... REAL... IF someone was smart theyd totally FAKE that moment, like "Yeah ...here I am just sitting here for FIFTEEN SECONDS waiting for my lines... just you and me..sure ... I'll throw you a smile.... Now I'm gonna see how MELTED ICE CUBE tastes..."

Semi metaphysical thought of the day while I wait for Phil to get here....

Im not saying im unique or that this thought is ORIGINAL but its just a perception I came to and Im sure many of you can relate.
I feel that your body is just a "car". Im surprised how many people think THEY ARE THEIR BODY, which is very different then what I feel. Once you manipulate your body you realize your body is just a machine for your "soul type thing" to drive around in and it puts you in a very different mind set. I think its why I can comprehend a tranny better someone off the street and why all the muscle dudes I know love a tranny because we all can relate, its like a CAR SHOW. Once you have consciously manipulated yourself through whatever means you choose you realize that the world is very different and that "you" does not necessarily mean the thing in the mirror. Yes its a symbiotic relationship but its two things going on as "production" its not just one "thing". Theyre very separate. Its like your "soul" drives around in a "car". I dunno, I feel like this can sometimes put me in a strange mind set. Its much easier to think you are just there, and thats all there is and then you die. I think that death though is the proof that what Im saying is true though, because when you "die" the body remains but the thing that controls it is gone, so therefore there are two things going on here because when youre dead the physical thing remains, its not like you die and both magically disappear, only one does...
I think it really explains why I loved Grace Jones and INSECTS and all the shit I did as a kid though, they were all these THINGS that sort of seemed "alien" and seemed to be like an entity within a WELL DESIGNED MACHINE or "shell" and thats sorta how I felt / feel on some level or WANTED to feel. I think It was especially attractive because as a kid your "shell" is still soft and gooey and UNHARDENED so that defense and design and control is very attractive. I didnt feel like I was one with everyone else. I felt like I was there, in this thing, along with a bunch of people who were actually perfectly fine and "one" with themselves , unquestioned and "normal" and there I was, observing and trying to figure out what the hell this thing I was in was, I still am...
Im finally having more fun wit it now though, and enjoying it. The "shell" is not just defensive anymore, in fact I have had to sort of crack out of it to embrace a new design...Ok now I sound CRAZY... Im all too spiritual and weird right now.. Im gonna quit but this is what happens when you take a caffeine pill and are waiting in the dark because the light bulbs have simultaneously burnt out and Im left with myself and my thoughts...

Styling 101.

These were the two most referenced films, and concepts in general, that EVERY stylist would come to you with as their idea. A solid 50% of the time some girl would show up at my door saying how her shoot was gonna be EDGY and MODERN and ask if Ive ever seen "The Night Porter" or "Blade Runner"... If I had the space I would have just handed them a box with stuff I made and said "Heres the "The Night Porter" box and heres the "Blade Runner" knock yourself out...Oh and heres the fetish wear box because I know thats your next question." ..."Oh and no I dont do womens gloves, heres the card for LaCrasia, because thats your next question after you rifle through the fetish box and dont find any."

Here is some stuff I made that is this schtick, sometime the concept would even be BOTH at the same time.. theyre classics. Its the two main ingredients for "the look". Always pair a latex glove with something classic, modern sunglasses, and then something "40s'" ... styling 101.

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I once QUEENED OUT so hard I HURT MYSELF!

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This has no bearing on anything but once in sixth grade I was at the school dance and VENUS by BANANARAMA came on and I QUEENED OUT so hard I started RUNNING, not even dancing, just started RUNNING AROUND, think BABY GIRAFFE on SPEED, and I was just OUT OF CONTROL and I CRASHED into the back of DAVID DIDIOs' HEAD, who was a baby straight so during VENUS he was just STANDING STILL and waiting for Bon Jovi to come on, I ran into him so hard I got a BLACK EYE... At least the purple and teal EYE matched the PURPLE AND TEAL BENNETON cardigan I was wearing that my sister got me for x mas...
This also has no bearing on anything but its just a random thought that came into my head while watching VENUS.... there is something strange about the fact that the PAST is SO ACCESSIBLE now. Like seemingly any media from my childhood on and even far before has now been recorded FOREVER. This concept is VERY DIFFERENT then anyone who came before us. Like my mothers history is GONE its not like she could just type stuff in youtube and there it is. For her to have to find stuff from her childhood she had to look for it in an ANTIQUE SHOP, now we have EBAY, and anything you want is out there. I dont know what it means but I know that it puts us all in a VERY VERY different kind of state of mind then our parents per say or at least our grandparents. They got older and the past was gone forever and done with and so they aged at the same rate as their history, but for us we can just never leave, or move ahead still carrying all of it, its all shared now its not like youre a baby boomer and im from the Depression etc etc, its like everyone is in the same boat now because we can all see everyones media. Not ever losing the past put us in a wildly different state of mind then people who didnt have this. I honestly dont know which is better but on a totally different side note I can see how its makes people so looks obsessed because in this weird way we dont mentally experience aging as much but our physical body does so its much harder for us to comprehend and deal with the process of aging physically because our past isnt "unsourceable history", and thus were way more interested in controlling our physical aging because our history is fully accessible and thus "frozen" and able to be sourced in seconds unlike our physical body which AGES...
I dunno people have been self obsessed since the beginning of time but I think not ever having "the past" anymore is very new, I think it will change culture tremendously and be something they talk about as a significant moment in history in the future much like the industrial revolution etc etc etc...... Just a thought that came to me as I watched Venus... why not share it.

Woah, Alice In Wonderland sucks out HARD!

I REALLY would have rather watched whatever CRACKERWORLD PRODUCTION of Alice In Wonderland this picture was from, then what I just paid 20$ to see. What a serious BORE. Im not even being JADED when I say that, the CHILDREN sitting around me fell asleep. The movie isnt even "Wonderful" by any stretch, its not pretty, or interesting, or captivating. The characters are are all CHARMLESS. The 3-d just was shitty, you can tell they had a tiny budget for it and just threw that in too, very "Oh just throw in some dandelion things and a couple bugs so the people dont feel used". The art direction felt phoned in a swell. Which is a surprise being that Tim Burton usually grasps on to that because he writes such a shitty story. He'll have a great concept, but it NEVER plays out well. Pee Wees big adventure, Beetlejuice, and Batman were fierce... I dont think any movie hes ever done since that at some point I didnt go " Whaaa???, Huh????" and felt like the whole storyline just got flushed down the toilet, but this movie is DIFFERENT.. Why???...because this movie HAS NO STORY, which isnt really his fault so much being that the story itself of Alice In Wonderland actually isnt so great. The characters are cool but the STORY itself is just sorta an "eh whateva" moment and this movie doesnt change that at all. There is no point to the Mad Hatter even being in the movie. He isnt significant to any kind of story line, because there IS NO story line. I honestly dont even wanna talk about this movie anymore, its not even FUN BAD its just BAD and BORING and SHITTY. I think we need a new "WEIRDO" in charge. Im over Tim Burtons brand of creative.
Oh?!..Why was Crispin Glovers body CGI? ...Just asking if you saw it.
I actually wanted to leave and go on this DATE but it was an IMAX theatre and I was in the middle of the theatre and I was AFRAID OF FALLING as cows arent exactly LITHE and moving through a crowd isnt something I can do with SUBTLETY. So I sat there in ANGUISH as I felt MOLESTED by the MOVIE when there is this completely out of context CGI "FUNKY DANCE" that the Mad Hatter does which is just such a "THROW A BONE TO THE RETARDS" moment its painful. It felt like when they had BOBBY BROWN sing the Ghostbusters 2 theme song and you just went "EWWWWWWWWWW, get me out of here, I feel GREASY and USED?!...... MORE THAN USUAL?!"....

Trannies will tell you the BEST kookoo gossip...

I dunno if ANY OF YOU even know who DALE BOZIO was or IS but she was sorta the original Lady GAGA and the lead singer of Missing Persons... anyways I had this TRANNY ROOMMATE in college named JAZMA who was STACEY Qs back up singer.. I know, i know......and I havent spoken to him/her in 10 years and he pops up to me on facebook and says "Dale got sent to PRISON" of course I ask "WHY?!" and he tells me that "She went on tour and FORGOT ABOUT HER CATS AND THE ATE EACH OTHER TO DEATH! So she did time for ANIMAL CRUELTY" ... Why am I always the last to know?!

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Happy Birthday dear Flower BOOOOOOOOMBBBB!!!

Grace performed last night for the 5 anniversary of Flower Bomb, which is one of the best named perfumes out there.. maybe THE BEST... I dunno. If I had my druthers Id sit around and invent million dollar perfume campaigns all day...