Friday, October 21, 2011

Poppers are the emotional equivalent to thumbsucking... for me at least


Im in a rush so I cant type too much but...
In a semi conscious state in the morning drifting in between sleep I brought my thumb up to my face as though I was going to suck it. Which is weird but not super uncommon for me I guess. I never sucked my thumb but as a little kid I'd hold my blanket under my nose with the tip of my thumb in my mouth and apparently even when I was an adult you could hear me suckling in my sleep sometimes in some wild primitive unconscious baby state. Well this morning I brought my thumb up to my nose/mouth BUT I also unconsciously inhaled like it was POPPERS... AND IT ALL CAME TOGETHER!
I never put the two together but in this semi-conscious state I realized that poppers had replaced thumb sucking to me. It makes so much sense. It performs the same task basically which is to create this very intimate insular state of self in which the outside world is blocked out. I had just never realized it before. It even the same gesture with the finger right at the tip of the nose etc....
I just thought this was interesting as I never realized that poppers unconsciously satisfied some unconscious need for feeling safe and deeply "self connected"... interesting...

5 comments:

Mathias N Oz said...

Poppers just give me a headache.

sobehotfun said...

Ditto here, Mathias.

Luke said...

Dave you should get our popper shirt :) curateur.tumblr.com

marqueda said...

Poppers are the best!!

Man-uel said...

I guess you can say that, poppers do make me feel some what safe when the naked guy next to me is Super THICK and GIRTHY!